Happy Mother's Day to a Great Woman in Heaven
Letter
Barbara Dell Hobbs
Happy Mother's Day to one of greatest women in Heaven! Mama, it has
taken me 56 years to write to you in Heaven and to express my deepest hurt
and how much I missed you the second you went to be with the Lord in
September, 1950. Mama, I believe that ever since that time, you've felt
my pain and my hurt for many years.
Mama, I won't go into details, but when you first left me everything
around me was dark and gloomy. It was the darkest moment in my life.
Though the sun was shining brightly, it refused to shine on me. While
other children were laughing and playing at school, I was in excruciating
pain. I knew that my life was not going to be the same without you,
Mama. Although I was six years old at the time, I realized that my
mother was not going to be there to make me a new little pretty cotton dress
to wear to school everyday. She was not going to be sitting on the
front porch every evening after school, waiting for her children to come
home. And Mama, I realized that you would no longer be around to cook
some good ole tasty tea cakes. Also, I would no longer be able to
watch you do a big laundry with a rub board and big tub of water on the
front porch.
Mama, I know that though your heart ached a plenty when you first had
to leave me. Later, you probably looked down from Heaven laughing about
your last experience with me. You gave me a good whipping the night
before you died. Daddy was sitting there on the big rocking chair
grinning and trying to tell me where to run and hide from you. Every place
he told me to run and hide, you'd find me and tear my little legs up
with the switch. Mama, I just want you to know that had I known you would
be leaving for Heaven the next day, I never would have thrown all the
clean clothes on the floor so I could go to bed that night. I didn't
realize that you were undoubtedly tired from doing your regular shores
for the day. Worse, I didn't know you were pregnant with child. As a
six-year older, I thought you were merely fat. So, Mama I apologize for
being such a selfish brat.
Also, Mama, I know you have been looking down upon me smiling for the
past 51 years, after Daddy finally decided to turn us six motherless
children over to Little Mama and Grand Daddy. We children could again
enjoy three meals a day and improve our grades. No poor disrespect for
Daddy. He couldn't take your place.
In addition Mama, you were probably cheering me on as I excelled in
school from the 6th to the 12th grade after Daddy had unfortunately left
us. Nonetheless, you undoubtedly frowned when I was desperate to join
the military at age 17. Mama, you probably clapped your hands each time
a recruiter turned me down. You didn't want your little daughter
serving in the military.
I imagine your heart leapt for joy when I moved to
California and successfully finished college. And when your little
grandson, Dexter, arrived in 1971, you rejoiced because you knew I was
going to be a virtuous mother like you were. You also probably bubbled
over with joy when your little great grand daughter Gabrielle Adoniah
(Dexter's only child) arrived on May 1, 2003.
Well, Mama, I know for over 50 years, you have constantly heard me
broadcasting to the world even on a Christian TV talk show--that I had a
virtuous mother. You showed me how to be a virtuous mother. So, I take
pride and strength to say to you in Heaven as you are resting--Happy
Mother's Day to One of the Greatest Mothers in Heaven.
Eternal Love
Happy Mother's Day to a Great Woman in Heaven© COPYRIGHT 2006 Barbara Dell Hobbs.
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08/21/06
